Am I a murderer or a lover ?

I never knew

I'd go this low...

I loved her so much

that I didn't even had control over my senses

She came in my life

and became the source of happiness.

I always wanted her

to be at my side forever.

I did everything to have her blindly.

But amidst my overflow of love

an anxiety dawned over me,

a fear of losing her...

I spent everything 

that was mine for her,

I had nothing left but she.

She was there, but I was scared.

I planned to gain capital,

I admit I did wrong,

what I did was out of fear, shame.

I took the child and killed him brutally..

I was madly in love with her..

I know I'm insane.

The fear of losing her finally came true;

but in reality

I lost everything.

Now I stand alone

in these dark black walls

remembering the day I saw you.

You're still the divine angel of mine

my love for you is still pure

but I'm no longer pure..

I'll never blame you for my sins

but now I know my love

for you was divine unlike yours..

You can call me a crazy murderer

but you can't change the fact 

that I'm a crazy lover.

Love is divine;

everything is fair in love and war,

then how is my gruesome act justified?

Am I a murderer or a lover?

My unheard melancholy - yet continues

My unheard melancholy - yet continues



Success, it was just a step away.

I could have achieved anything;

But that one mistake of mine

just shattered everything.

Failure, it was nowhere to be seen.

I knew I couldn't fail at all

but that one mistake of mine

just shattered everything.

I decided to have some

fun that night,

and it really turned out to be

the most horrifying night of my life.

I don't know why it happened to me...

But if only the society would

have changed its views,

that beautiful night 'd have

never turned into a scary one.

Now, I plead to my Orthodox society,

let girls be born,

treat girls with equality.

And teach your sons

some manners, that you

so desperately want to teach your daughters.

I'm a rape victim

and your sons are the victim

of mental disorder.

Help Them.

GIRLS DON'T NEED YOUR SYMPATHY

   BUT YOUR SONS NEEDS IT A LOT.

Our friendship

OUR FRIENDSHIP

I had never known such friendship

until I met you guys.

You two were just inseparable.

I had no one to hold on to

but you guys helped me,

boosted my confidence in me

I felt so precious.

And then due to unfateful chain of events

 'I'

unconsciously separated you guys.

One of you became my best friend

but then me, 'the dumbo'

couldn't even understand the depth of friendship.

I complained to the other

just because of silly tangles,

my mind couldn't solve.

Later the other became 

my good friend,

yes just good friend, but we 

could never make it to best friends

sadly because we had the 

unseen barrier between us.

You guys are still in my life

but none of you are the same.

Forget and forgive "me"...Move on now

And lets be the awesome threesome

instead of 'you two' or 'we two'.

I long for that friendship

which we three perhaps once had.

Let's relive those joyous moments

and capture those for forever.

Instead of letting me

remorse over my guilt.

I know I deserve but;

you guys seriously don't . 

The Setting Sun

The Setting Sun

The setting sun

amidst the clouds,

going down and down

and slowly vanishing from sight

looks like the girl who is

getting married against her will.

Succumbing to the society's desire

reluctantly killing her individuality

slowly vanishing,

losing her identity

still giving light to another family...

Is having the agenda of non-violence and going on tolerating good against being violent for your rights?

Ever wondered why quotes like 'Tit for Tat' or 'An eye for an eye' are not generally used by everyone except a few.Once there was an era when use of violence was intolerable by our society.But is it still the same?No, not at all. Instead a person who is non-violent is made fun of. He is the target of every bully. It is not limited only to bullying but the person can't even survive in this world at all. He's tortured, played with, at every phase of life.
One needs to be strong enough to stand against the injustice being done against him. Whether if it means using violence. To survive, bravery is the need of today. Imagine a student being teased by a strong student, if the victim student goes on with his non-violence means and put forwards his another cheek, then it would only result in getting bullied daily. Or think of a man in government office trying to get his work done, and the government official demands a bribe to do his work. The innocent citizen in his hurry offers the bribe. But what next?? His work would be done for now and what about later? More bribery? More people would be affected by this. Non-violence is good but there's a limit to every thing. In every such case if the person at the very first instance shows some courage and oppose the injustice, it would never result in non-violence. But no if you don't do this now; later you would have to go for violent means. And eventually it would be "Tit for Tat' or "An eye for an eye'.
Being non-violent and going on tolerating injustice is seriously not a good idea. At last you would be agitated and devastated Ask yourself "are you really that patient."So be wise and start acting now.......instead of being a fool, blind minded.  For the very society's welfare stop listening to the 'so called norms' of the society. If our society has some backdrops then our ancestors won't come back to change them. We would only have to change it.
ACT ,  JUST   DON'T   WATCH   IDLY !

Yes, I'm a working woman

Yes I'm a working woman

Yes, I'm selfish 

to think about myself first.

Yes, I'm cruel

to think of my family's welfare.

Yes, I'm double faced

to act independently on my own.

Yes, I'm a cheater

to interact with everyone irrespective of their gender.

Yes, I've got no emotion

because I don't end up showing my frustration to others.

Yes, I'm spendthrift

because I earn that it depends on me.

Yes, I'm a working woman,self-obsessed,

a cheater, double faced etc......

Anything wrong over here?

Yes, YOUR MENTALITY.

The Lost Love

           

The Lost Love

I stood there on porch

waiting for you to comeback

having no idea of your intentions.

With every passing day 

my heart aches for you, your love

your mere presence would

have given me peace.

Now sitting on the stairs

I wonder where you are

without me;

Whether happy or lonely ?

This cruel world mocks at me

but my love for you is divine unlike yours.

I'll be here,

forever,waiting for you,

lost without you

Melancholy

Sitting on the shore,

looking at the waves

reminds me of your laughing, shouting face,

reminds me how you faced every difficulties, enjoying.

I maybe lost between the blues

but you're there with me always

somewhere in the clouds,

playing hide and seek.

I smile all alone, people laugh

mocking at me

And I'm out of my dreams,

shattered, all alone without you......

My favorite quotes.

‎"The only competition you will ever face is with your own ignorance". - 



"Never show your deep felt emotion to others,
the world is very cruel , you won't even know
and just because one of your emotions,
your world would turn upside down".


"Don't belittle others ,
you never know what can happen tomorrow".


"Life isn't about how much you have tolerated instead
how much you have fought back.."


"Replace the fear of unknown with curiosity".


“Courage is about doing what you're afraid to do. There can be no courage unless you're scared. ” ~Eddie Rickenbacker 


"Respect is earned by your deeds and not by your wealth".

Beauty.......a feast to the ones who want it.

Beauty lies in the mind

and not in the face.

It is eternal, not external.

Beauty can't be described words

as it is something which can be felt.

It can't be judged as everything's

beautiful in one way or the other.

What matters is your approach towards it .

Shed your negativity and then look around

you'll find everything beautiful.

You

Deep in your eyes,

I can see the pain

that you hide behind your smile.

Thy face enlightens everyone's face

but I know there's a pain

hidden behind your face.

You are always unconscious of this harsh world

and I know behind this unconscious mind

rests a saddened , burdened soul

who wants to rest in peace,

leaving the chores of this harsh world behind.