Dear Love,

The feeling that you have aroused in me

is more like having a void in my heart

rather than the contented heart

who pumps ones cheeks red.....

My cheeks do turn red

but with fury and hate.

I wonder,

was love ever there between us.

If so you wouldn't have vanished

 into thin air as if you never existed.

How could you think

the plane could separate us

when we were never together.

Do you really think your

distance from me would 

make me change the truth 

that you don't love me?

Ah! It's only confirming it.

I don't find it hard to assert 

that I don't love you,

the tears,

only mean I cared for you 

and caring, 

is not love , is it ?

If it is, then I can say you have loved me always.

The god can't hide you from me forever.

People think I'm going crazy, but

my dear,

they don't understand us, 

the feelings which we shared were

far beyond love.

I don't want you to love me but be with me forever..forever.

How can I live when my heart is not with me?

How can I love when you are not with me?

I'm dead as my heart doesn't beats anymore.......!

A message to the so called 'civil society'

You preach of Gandhi,

then why are you forgetting 

his message of love, peace and non- violence?

You demand equality in your society

then why discriminate while loving?

You teach your children to love

then why stop them from loving ?

Who am I 

to question you....

I'm the daughter, the son , the sister , the brother

whom you kill mercilessly, without any hesitation.

If loving someone is a crime

resulting in death penalty

in civil society, then please

don't let me step into your cruel society.

Lost Individuality

Those words,

which has inflicted so much upon me,

were none other than yours.

Those smiles,

which has left me mesmerized,

were the sheer twist of your face.

Those embraces,

which made my heart skip a beat

were nothing virtual, just the slightest greeting of yours.

Your behaviour, your walking, your fashion,

your humor, your likes, your dislikes, 

everything of yours

has always left me spellbound.

And now,

with a smirk on my face,

I admit

I have lost my individuality...

I'm nothing,

but the reflection of your personality.

Yet my soul intrigues me,

Why am I like that?

And the only answer which hurts me the most is

"I was in love, with you"

When you didn't even acknowledged me,

nor my individuality!

In search of happiness

I wish I could find you

Where are you hidden?

Every emotion I don't need

is there but not you.

No matter where you are

but I'll find you someday.

I'm determined to get yo

but these emotions stop me.

My dear happiness, come to me.

I'll always treasure you.

No matter how much people want 

to keep you away from me,

I'll find you in the end.

And keep you with me till the end.

Am I a murderer or a lover ?

I never knew

I'd go this low...

I loved her so much

that I didn't even had control over my senses

She came in my life

and became the source of happiness.

I always wanted her

to be at my side forever.

I did everything to have her blindly.

But amidst my overflow of love

an anxiety dawned over me,

a fear of losing her...

I spent everything 

that was mine for her,

I had nothing left but she.

She was there, but I was scared.

I planned to gain capital,

I admit I did wrong,

what I did was out of fear, shame.

I took the child and killed him brutally..

I was madly in love with her..

I know I'm insane.

The fear of losing her finally came true;

but in reality

I lost everything.

Now I stand alone

in these dark black walls

remembering the day I saw you.

You're still the divine angel of mine

my love for you is still pure

but I'm no longer pure..

I'll never blame you for my sins

but now I know my love

for you was divine unlike yours..

You can call me a crazy murderer

but you can't change the fact 

that I'm a crazy lover.

Love is divine;

everything is fair in love and war,

then how is my gruesome act justified?

Am I a murderer or a lover?

My unheard melancholy - yet continues

My unheard melancholy - yet continues



Success, it was just a step away.

I could have achieved anything;

But that one mistake of mine

just shattered everything.

Failure, it was nowhere to be seen.

I knew I couldn't fail at all

but that one mistake of mine

just shattered everything.

I decided to have some

fun that night,

and it really turned out to be

the most horrifying night of my life.

I don't know why it happened to me...

But if only the society would

have changed its views,

that beautiful night 'd have

never turned into a scary one.

Now, I plead to my Orthodox society,

let girls be born,

treat girls with equality.

And teach your sons

some manners, that you

so desperately want to teach your daughters.

I'm a rape victim

and your sons are the victim

of mental disorder.

Help Them.

GIRLS DON'T NEED YOUR SYMPATHY

   BUT YOUR SONS NEEDS IT A LOT.

Our friendship

OUR FRIENDSHIP

I had never known such friendship

until I met you guys.

You two were just inseparable.

I had no one to hold on to

but you guys helped me,

boosted my confidence in me

I felt so precious.

And then due to unfateful chain of events

 'I'

unconsciously separated you guys.

One of you became my best friend

but then me, 'the dumbo'

couldn't even understand the depth of friendship.

I complained to the other

just because of silly tangles,

my mind couldn't solve.

Later the other became 

my good friend,

yes just good friend, but we 

could never make it to best friends

sadly because we had the 

unseen barrier between us.

You guys are still in my life

but none of you are the same.

Forget and forgive "me"...Move on now

And lets be the awesome threesome

instead of 'you two' or 'we two'.

I long for that friendship

which we three perhaps once had.

Let's relive those joyous moments

and capture those for forever.

Instead of letting me

remorse over my guilt.

I know I deserve but;

you guys seriously don't .